My brother’s birthday today

I got him a dash cam. I’ve read about all sorts of people who avoided being held responsible for accidents because they had video proof it was the other guy who screwed up.

In other news free livestream about Python tonight! Imma check it out and hopefully learn some valuable stuff. Python would be a great language to know.

Day 3 and 4

Yeah, didn’t write a blog post yesterday, but i did work! I downloaded a bunch of progrms that I’ll need to do the course, including Jupyter and Anaconda. Today’s videos were on the same topic so I just watched them to make sure I was doing it right. Spoiler alert: I was.

Day 2

Date: 9/17/2016

Time spent: 2 hours

tODAY i SETUP ALL MY LOGINS AND FIGURED OUT HOW TO GET INTO THE SITE. Then I fixed my Capslock and familiarized myself with the textbooks and the videos, of which there are many. This course seems to mainly be a series of videos that you watch, much like Udemy, and assignments are, now that I’ve actually started, less time-focused than they led me to believe. I would have preferred a little more authority, to be perfectly honest. I’m also a little ticked off at the part where they explain “you’re going to need a compiler. Specifically Microsoft Visual which is a hundred dollars.” This flies right in the face of their assurances that everything you’d need for the course was included for free.



The other part I love is right here:


Not that I’m surprised or anything, that sounds a lot more realistic than the lofty promises they were making me, but of course we don’t get to do anything actually fun until you buy Course II. This was a total mistake, but I’m financially invested so I don’t have much of a choice.

It really sucks that I’m hitting D2 of the situational leadership model on my very first day, but I think most of it is buyer’s remorse. This was a fucking stupid idea to buy this course, it wasn’t even what I actually want. What I actually want is to go somewhere with human beings and learn how to code in a brick-and-mortar institution with homework and study groups, not be stuck yet again in front of this computer with nobody except Parker, my programming assistant. My major personality flaw is self-motivation for non-writing shit; I do not work well when its just me berating myself to go do my work, I want deadlines and humans expecting me to do things.


No offense Parker, but I made this mistake before, and for a LOT less money. And now they’re changing the rules immediately, and I don’t see how I’m possibly going to learn to program from this monotone female voice droning on about matrices and shit. Seriously, she’s giving me unpleasant memories of Mavis Beacon from my middle school years.

New Course, New Accountability


My game design course starts soon, and I’m going to get back on the board of posting on this blog every day. I spent real money on this course, I’m not interested in floundering and eventually falling off the wagon like I did with the Unity course. To that effect, every blog post will start with the following data:

Date: 9/16/2016

Time spent: 1 hour

What you did: Familiarized myself with the Game Institute website, watched some of the tutorial videos, waited patiently for somebody to email me the starter packet which arrives within 24 hours according to the email.

To reiterate; I’m hoping that a more regimented course with professors, assignments, and failstates will help motivate me to get the course done. This course is also far more in-depth, leaping right into C++, Blender, and Unreal. Unreal has a number of perks over Unity (and visa versa) but the fact that it’s free to use is a major plus point in my favor.

“next few days”

Hi old blog! Here’s what I’ve been up to last few days. (Did wordpress change something massive? Everything’s layout is stupid):

  1. Just got back from Scotland. Was fucking awesome. We saw sites and sights and suites and I think even Dad enjoyed himself since we did a guided tour for once, meaning he didn’t need to drill sergeant us everywhere. There’ll be a long article about my trip on the Daily SPUF soon.
  2. Speaking of which, I’ve ported EVERY post of mine from the Daily SPUF (and Lambda Generation) to a backup blog so that if the main blog goes down again (like what just happened with the Daily SPUF, scaring the crap out of everyone) I’ll at least have my work.
  3. Electra City is done except for music, which a musician friend of mine is doing. Says they’ll be done in the next few days. All righty…
  4. I’ve enrolled in this and I’m fucking terrified. It claims to be for beginner/amateur game developers, but look at that syllabus! C++, trigonometry, Blender…they’re not fucking around. But summer’s over, now we’re in sink or swim territory. Wish me luck.


Hey man. I think we would have started an open relationship.

Special thanks to my phone’s auto fill suggestions for providing the title of this post. Lord knows I had no better ideas.

In 48 hours I’ll be on a plane to California. I’ve spent 1 year plugging away at Austin, Texas, and while I’ve learned loads of new skills and earned certifications from online classes, I just can’t seem to make it stick, and I’m switching pastures. And in particular, I have my sights on Overwatch. The Blizzard team designing that game lives in Irvine, so if I want to become a part of Overwatch from the inside my living options are quite short. In order to earn enough to afford an apartment in Irvine, I’m swallowing my pride and moving in with my parents so I can build up an income without losing rent and food money.


But I cannot make this decision without admitting that it terrifies me. One of the few things I had was my forward movement, and this move isn’t nearly as cut-n-dried as the one that brought me to Austin. I cannot deny the obvious elements of convenience and shirking of responsibility that come with living with my parents. We all know that guy who coasts through life, never advancing and coattailing on family and friends indefinitely. I need to be absolutely sure I don’t fall into that rut.


But it honestly might be too late. I don’t have nearly enough of a plan to justify this move. I’m leaving hundreds of dollars of furniture and electronics that I couldn’t fit into my duffel and carry through the airport. My friends in Austin are going to miss me, and I’m pretty sure I killed a serious opportunity with one who’s more romantically compatible with me than anyone I’ve ever met. Am I giving up too soon? What exactly is my plan to attract Blizzard once I’m in California? Why aren’t I applying for them right now, here in Austin, so I could maybe get the job and move then?

I dunno. But the tickets bought and time moves steadily onward. My guts telling me this is the right call. I’d grown complacent in Austin, scraping by via nude modeling and an underpaid customer service job, and with Lyft and uber departing the city I don’t have the transportation options I need to travel throughout this city. The extremely sensitive line between forwarding myself and becoming a stagnant NEET might be the mental trepidation I need, and my parents house will keep that thought constantly on the forefront of my mind. On July 1st I unpack, and July 2nd I start jobhunting. I will continue my classes, I’ll continue shoutcasting Overwatch scrims daily, and I’ll apply to Blizzard every opportunity I can.


In other news, the Steam Summer Sale finally gave me the chance to buy the Clickteam Fusion HTML5 exporter. I’m excited to finally upload some of my games to I finished my most controversial Flora story yet and got great reactions from my readers, it’s called “5 Stages of Flora” and you can read it in the codex I linked last article.

I’ll miss Austin. I’ll miss my exercycle. I’ll miss this period of my life. But I never expected it to be permanent, and while friends can hypothetically lead to career advancement opportunities, it’s pretty clear these arent. Onward and outward.